More Sweat In Peace, Less Blood In War 10 96

Yes- we’ve war time
Once I even longed for it
But now I don’t know why

We had been told to have the honour of helping our country
We had been blinded by several nice pictures & speeches
We were thrown into it without realizing it
We told ourselves how proud we really were

No- we were not forced
We all wanted it &
Didn’t have to …

Yes- it was our own mission
Our decision
Our challenge

Firstly I was lucky to be here
I was full of plans
Hope
Ideas
When came the moment when I began to hate it?

As realizing having a responsibility?
As noticing having changed fun into real life?
As loosing my religion?
As loosing my euphority?
As remembering having sweat so much in peace & as longing for less blood in war?
As realizing having no chance to change anything at all?
As realizing being a marionette
A fucking little number?
One of a million?
Is it all in vain?

No- you still do blood
But after having get used to it in peace
You don’t feel too much pain anymore

Yes- it has became normal for us
Everything
Somehow …

(eingegeben 16.04.06- ausgedacht 10 1996)