Best Of That Mess 01 07

You’re confrontated with lots of
People
Expectations
Experience

Of course you don’t have to have the same opinion
Different points of view are certain

You said your feelings
Somebody else totally disagrees with you
So why do you care?

It’s his fault
His dilemma
His life

You talked with all concerned people
Your statement is clear
So don’t worry at all

Make the best of that mess
Find out who’s on your side
Of course some people disagree with you
Should you be in love with the whole world?

No

Try to understand the other people
Their point of view
Still think what you say
Say what you think
Mean what you say
Say what you mean

Respect the others
Their opinions
And after all
Make the best of that mess

(eingegeben am 09.09.07 – ausgedacht 01/07)

Thank You For Goodbye 7 05

It’s been an awful time with you
Most of it
I didn’t feel very pleased & satisfied

It’s over now
Finally
Luckily
I won’t miss you
I’ve lost you long before

You just were you in my eyes
We didn’t have the same dream
You don’t dream
There was no we- never

I’ll live- more than ever
I’ll survive- it’s my time of my life
I don’t mind about you & yours

Go on living your way
Go on sucking
I don’t mind
I say never more

Bye

(Eingegeben 23.03.07 - Ausgedacht 7/05)

Two Different Worlds 7 05

We’ve too many different worlds
Especially yours & mine
You want to go
Left- me right
You like to talk about the past
Me about our future

I want to go
To the mountains- you to the lake
I want to find myself- you lots of friends
I wish to marry- you’ll think about it

We’ve nothing in common
I want to live my life
I don’t want to know anything about you any more
We talk in different languages

One day I’ll find my right Mrs. Me
Don’t worry about me
I also don’t care about you

I live my dreams
Without you
What a dream
What a different world it’s now

(Eingegeben 23.03.07 - Ausgedacht 7/05)

What Do You Want? 2 01

What do you want?

Everything is fine
But you're too blind

You're waiting
For whome & what?

What do you do after having received
The things having waited for?

Are you angry of yourself
Having done nothing else but waiting?

You are not hungry
You have something to do

You know some people
You have heard about some things

So what else
Do you want?

(Eingegeben 19.02.07 - Ausgedacht 02/01)

What She Said 11 00

What she said
It really shocked me

Are things like that?
Is she right?

Did I do lots of things all in vain?
Is there no rescue?
No hope?
Am I lost?

Never mind

It's what she said
What she thinks

It's not certain
That is the truth
The reality

Still it's important
What I think & do

On the other hand

What she said
It really shocked me

(Eingegeben 18.02.07 - Ausgedacht 11/00)

Crash 10 98

I'm thinking of lots of things: what will be? Why have some things been like this?
Was there really no other solution?

I want to change. I want to change everything. I think I'm the least intelligent human being of the world. No one else is so stupid like I'm. I have to get better. I must be faster, fitter, better. No stopping- becoming a machine. No mistakes at all. No wrong questions & answers. Always being perfect. No exceptions for being not a fit & good person.

Smiling all day, weak & year long. No fear at all. Totaly planning & control. No waste of anything or everything. No.

Oh god- there has been a crash. A brutal accident. How soon is suddenly.
There are some people injured. Some have already died & many of them are shocked. They have thrown away all their fears, thoughts, self-pityness, clumsy & lousy lies, heads & bones ...

Why must there be a crash like this to become a real human being again???

(Eingegeben 15.02.07 - Ausgedacht 10/98)

Laugh Love 12 97

You might love this story- nevertheless: keep on laughing.
There was a girl & a boy- the good old theme. Whenever they saw each other they had a good laugh. The next morning she always had trouble with him, he always didn’t want to leave her.

In spite of all they kept on loving. They really had a good love.

But nobody could understand her: why has she that lover? But she only kept on laughing. She smiled & said: noone else makes me feel so fine while laughing.
He always was asked to leave her.

This love isn't good- it's too loud & wrong. Everybody is disturbed,
He looked clumsy for a while & then he told everybody:
I don't mind if somebody doesn't love me laughing.

Then he left the place in order to meet her for an other laugh.
Because of the love they looked younger & very pleased. The laugh set them free, they had no problems at all & the people got used to it.
After a while they laughed because they knew every move of them & knew where they were, because they were so noisy while loving.

Still there is one matter which is not that clear:
is it possible to love while laughing?
Or is it shocking to laugh while loving?

(Eingegeben 13.02.07 - Ausgedacht 12/97)

Three Weeks Ago 9/97

Three weeks ago something happened
Something which is not told to me
But that is ok

Now you want to be alone
But that is ok

Thinking
Laughing
Crying
Falling in self-pityness
Falling in several crises

Perhaps you need it
I don’t know
There is nothing being afraid of

You have ears listening to you
You have arms longing holding you
So you have everything
Do you have?

Why don’t you trust?
Why don’t you take the opportunity talking face to face?
Why don’t you throw out all your dust?
Why do you only believe in your old friends?
Don’t you know- once even they were unknown for you?

Perhaps they tell you the right things
That would be ok
But are they really the ones talking to?
Don’t they know you too well?
Don’t they trust you blindly?
Don’t they tell you the things you want to know?
Not the things you ought to hear?

Really- I know nothing at all
But I do know that it is not that bad staying alone in the room
But only if people really are there in the case of emergency
Will they be there all the time?

You don’t have to laugh while meeting them
You don’t have to be charming
You should think & perhaps you’ll find out

It’s ok reflecting some things
But it’s not ok only thinking & staying in yourself

Go on living your way of life
Everybody needs a break
So do you

But please don’t forget
The world doesn’t matter about you
But you do matter about you

You don’t know?
Well
Laugh- what happens?
Cry- what happens?


Don’t you see
The world stays the same
Only you are changing

Your mood
Your point of view
Your thinking

So
Do what you want
But please don’t stay & keep yourself in yourself
Don’t loose yourself in yourself

Don’t hide
Don’t panic
Whatever has happened three weeks ago …

(eingegeben 11.02.07 - ausgedacht 09 1997)

You 4/97

You
Once
Yes onee upon a time
I liked you
I reaIIy did

But after some time
You wanted me being you

I'm sorry
I'm not
I'm not you
I'm me
I'II be me always

Surely
Sometimes I'm gonna change myself
But in the end I'II be &
Return to me

Truely
I'II try to please people
Just good pretending
But not for a long time

So it's better for aII

Not trying ehanging me
Accept me or let it be
I'II be me ...
I hope so ...

Don't you like me so?

(eingegeben 28.0I.07 - ausgedacht 04 1997)

More Sweat In Peace, Less Blood In War 10 96

Yes- we’ve war time
Once I even longed for it
But now I don’t know why

We had been told to have the honour of helping our country
We had been blinded by several nice pictures & speeches
We were thrown into it without realizing it
We told ourselves how proud we really were

No- we were not forced
We all wanted it &
Didn’t have to …

Yes- it was our own mission
Our decision
Our challenge

Firstly I was lucky to be here
I was full of plans
Hope
Ideas
When came the moment when I began to hate it?

As realizing having a responsibility?
As noticing having changed fun into real life?
As loosing my religion?
As loosing my euphority?
As remembering having sweat so much in peace & as longing for less blood in war?
As realizing having no chance to change anything at all?
As realizing being a marionette
A fucking little number?
One of a million?
Is it all in vain?

No- you still do blood
But after having get used to it in peace
You don’t feel too much pain anymore

Yes- it has became normal for us
Everything
Somehow …

(eingegeben 16.04.06- ausgedacht 10 1996)