Crash 10 98

I'm thinking of lots of things: what will be? Why have some things been like this?
Was there really no other solution?

I want to change. I want to change everything. I think I'm the least intelligent human being of the world. No one else is so stupid like I'm. I have to get better. I must be faster, fitter, better. No stopping- becoming a machine. No mistakes at all. No wrong questions & answers. Always being perfect. No exceptions for being not a fit & good person.

Smiling all day, weak & year long. No fear at all. Totaly planning & control. No waste of anything or everything. No.

Oh god- there has been a crash. A brutal accident. How soon is suddenly.
There are some people injured. Some have already died & many of them are shocked. They have thrown away all their fears, thoughts, self-pityness, clumsy & lousy lies, heads & bones ...

Why must there be a crash like this to become a real human being again???

(Eingegeben 15.02.07 - Ausgedacht 10/98)